I decided to put this story on display to make everybody aware that this eating disorder does exist, it did even to a typical girl like me. No one knew about my case until I told someone about it because I looked perfectly normal. I was lucky that I managed to get out of it before it gets serious.
I was not really fat, some people even said that I have the ideal weight for my height. I stood 5 feet 7 inches tall and weighed 125lbs. But I was bothered a lot with my chubby face and also wanted to do ramp modelling. I started going on a diet, eating much less than a normal teenage girl would do.I did everything to achive a skinny model-like figure. I took laxatives and slimming pills.I also engaged in smoking thinking it keeps me from craving for food.
I did lose a lot of weght and I was very happy about it. Then I started eating normal meals and I realized how I missed it. I got very afraid on getting back the pounds that I've already lost so I searched for ways on how I can avoid that. I enrolled in a gym but working out made me crave for more food. And then I learned about self-induced vomiting. It made sense for me, throwing out the food that you've swallowed before they get digested thus avoiding uncessary fats being stored in our body.
After couple of weeks,I started to feel very tired for what I was doing. I got depressed so I ate more food for comfort . Symptoms started coming out. I experienced severe tootache and sore throat.I also experienced occasional heart burn and stomach ache. So I researched about bulimia. I've seen pictures of girls who endured it, I've read stories of real people who suffered from it and whose family member died because of it.
I was shocked when I learned that it can be fatal. I realized having the body I wanted is not worth the risk. And I won't let myself jeopardize the good health that I was born with. I maybe one of the few people who never stayed overnight in a hospital room. I abruptly drop my bad habit, believe me it wasn't that hard. I accepted body shape and began to appreciate the curves that I have. I was also adored by some because of my cute round face. I still overeat sometimes but I make sure I have a balanced diet. I may not have a perfect body but who cares? Not everybody does anyway.
I was not really fat, some people even said that I have the ideal weight for my height. I stood 5 feet 7 inches tall and weighed 125lbs. But I was bothered a lot with my chubby face and also wanted to do ramp modelling. I started going on a diet, eating much less than a normal teenage girl would do.I did everything to achive a skinny model-like figure. I took laxatives and slimming pills.I also engaged in smoking thinking it keeps me from craving for food.
I did lose a lot of weght and I was very happy about it. Then I started eating normal meals and I realized how I missed it. I got very afraid on getting back the pounds that I've already lost so I searched for ways on how I can avoid that. I enrolled in a gym but working out made me crave for more food. And then I learned about self-induced vomiting. It made sense for me, throwing out the food that you've swallowed before they get digested thus avoiding uncessary fats being stored in our body.
After couple of weeks,I started to feel very tired for what I was doing. I got depressed so I ate more food for comfort . Symptoms started coming out. I experienced severe tootache and sore throat.I also experienced occasional heart burn and stomach ache. So I researched about bulimia. I've seen pictures of girls who endured it, I've read stories of real people who suffered from it and whose family member died because of it.
I was shocked when I learned that it can be fatal. I realized having the body I wanted is not worth the risk. And I won't let myself jeopardize the good health that I was born with. I maybe one of the few people who never stayed overnight in a hospital room. I abruptly drop my bad habit, believe me it wasn't that hard. I accepted body shape and began to appreciate the curves that I have. I was also adored by some because of my cute round face. I still overeat sometimes but I make sure I have a balanced diet. I may not have a perfect body but who cares? Not everybody does anyway.
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